no one is there

im at a loss. i had hoped that when i got up this morning i would feel better but i didnt. nothing had changed. i dont know if i really thought it would or if i had only hoped it would. i want to just go to sleep and not wake up for a while. everthing is better when i sleep. things always work out the way you want in your dreams. and then the alarm goes off and your back in the really world and the problems and pain is still there. all i wanted to do was lie back down and forget everything and everyone. but i cant. i need to get this sorted out. i tried it on my own and its not working. i need help. the worst part is i dont feel God in my life at all. i think thats the most lonely part of it all. i dont feel him anywhere or in anyone. its just me and that is not good because im a mess right now.