at a loss

i dont really know what i am doing right now. i am blindly walking aroud hopeing that i am going in the right direction. there is so much going on in my head i dont know what to make of it all. one of the biggest things is my relationship with my parents. at times its great, everything is fine. and then there are those moments where i dont know if i can take it anymore. i know this happens to everyone at some point in their life but it seems to be coming at a not se great time. all of this happening ontop of all the other things is getting hard to handle. it is dealing with some of this other stuff that i need them the most and its hard. it hurts to think that i might do something that will damage our relationship for a long time. i dont want that to happen but i can see myself heading down that path and im fighting to stop it. it makes me wonder if it would get better if i didnt live at home anymore. i feel like i need to get away from the house. i dont know. maybe that is the last thing i need right now. to be alone. im not sure and im not going to make any big choices to fast. i have to at least make it to the end of the school year. then, who knows...